Lately I haven't been eating much....
Eating makes me sick. The bile rising in the back of your throat sick where you just want to run into the bathroom and vomit out everything you've been eating for the past year. Thinking about eating makes me sick. So I would avoid eating until I'm really hungry and my stomach protests about how empty it is. And that is the only reason I would eat now.
Just so that I don't pass out.
But I don't even finish half of my food any more. And I don't even eat a lot to start with. Yesterday, I grabbed half a small bowl of rice. And thing was....I didn't even finish it. I felt full after a couple of mouthfuls. And the rest of my food ended being swallowed by the bin.... And I feel really terrible about it because I know that there are people out there struggling to get even ONE spoonful of food and here I am wasting food.
But food really does make me sick. Even ice cream and sweets!!!
And I have a massive sweet tooth. Not only that but I LOVE food. So I'm not exactly happy at the moment. Hopefully, I will gain back my appetite so I can go on a massive junk food binge to make up for the past week.
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