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Tuesday, January 4, 2011

You're not my cup of tea.

What is love? What compels one to like a person and not the other? These things are never easy to explain. Much less trying to explain it to the very person that you cannot return your feelings to.

I'm sorry.

I know that no matter how many times I apologise it doesn't change the fact that I hurt you.  You're upset that I didn't give you enough chances to prove yourself. But what was never there won't ever be. And I'm sorry but I never meant to be cruel. It was never my intention. But its just not meant to be.

But I have to wonder about your intentions.

Digging through sand with nails half broken and half way to nowhere. I graze my knees against soiled jewels and dented treasure chests. All are beautiful and all are pleasing. But none are to my liking. I'm searching for something. I'm waiting. I'm always waiting for the right moment. For the right one. For him.

But I don't know who.

Why is does it only work one way?
Why do you like me yet I don't feel a single emotion. Except disgust.
Don't touch me so freely when anyone else will do. As long as they're cute.
Don't touch me when there is still so much for you to learn. You jumping ahead of yourself.
Then again, maybe I'm just too picky?
I want that star that hangs delicately between night and dawn.Why can't I have my cake and eat it too?
What is wrong with wanting that missing puzzle piece?

Come back when you finally understand the meaning behind my words.

I'm sorry. But love is never easy.


bakayabi said...

You didn't do anything wrong. He was an idiot and was way ahead of himself.

And to think he didn't think he was doing anything wrong. So naive or he is ill-intentioned.

If I were you, I would have been disgusted, not that I wasn't. But I fuelled your disgust with my remarks...

If you're picky, then what am I classified as?

Don't overthink it, what's done is done.

Philosophia said...

It's always tough to tell someone you don't reciprocate the feelings, but you have to do what's right for you, so I'm really glad that you stuck to your guns. I just know the New Year will bring you lots of happiness and hopefully your soul mate as well. :)

Vencora said...

i've seen way too many people wind up in accidental relationships. the kind where someone says "well, i wasn't really interested, but they were, so i figured it'd give it a chance." those don't tend to end well. i'm glad you don't lack the ability that so many people do to say no to people.

Nova said...

You cannot make yourself want, need, love someone that your heart does not feel for. Please do not try because you will end up hurt and I would hate to see that happen. I have been there far too many times and I would not wish that on my worst enemy.

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