Once I've made a decision, my head feels lighter. It doesn't change the fact that this will be difficult and people will judge but for once in my life, I don't care. People will always judge. They don't matter. The only opinions that matter are those of my friends and family. And if they're not supportive then I'll just have to go through this alone.
And that's okay too.
Because, in a few months time, I'll be leaving on a journey of independence and self discovery. I can't find myself when all I can hear are the clashing voices of everyone around me. I would go now but two factors are holding me back:
1. Still saving money
2. I can't abandon my family when things are tough
So for now, I just have to be patient and persevere. I have to remember to find joy in the little things. Because, I know if I can't smile about the little things then I'll fall apart. I'm a desperate optimist.
Beloved followers, wish me luck.
Lucy (aka. Lovesick Fool)
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