When life is a tipped over hourglass, what am I supposed to do? I pass days by with work and any means of passing time. I exercise, I write, I read, I become fixated on the fictional lives inside television dramas. I try to distract myself from self-destructing thoughts. I try not to think about the "Maybes."
Maybe I'll change my mind again?
Maybe next year won't be better afterall?
Maybe I'm making a mistake?
Maybe I should get engaged?
Maybe I'm really a horrible person?
Maybe my dreams will always remain such?
Maybe I 'm a little lost?
When life becomes complicated, I always try to think back to how it became this way. How did things end up the way they did? When did I start blending lemons instead of squeezing them? Then I realise that I think too much. If I stop thinking, maybe I'll start feeling again. Because, I fear that I may have lost my heart somewhere along this journey and I can't get it back.
4 comments:
someone snuffed out my flame too. Hang in there. Fires in the belly, are but intriguing to those to dull to create their own. So they attach themselves to ones who do, and if they are so engorged by life jealousy. The flame simply dies.
Something so momentary, can be seen in both ways.
Some feel that life is too trivial, that it is a waste of time in of itself.
But that's the beauty of it, don't you see? Everything is temporary, everything is momentary, what we see and feel are those moments captured.
Its all in your mind Lucy. And i don't think you see your problem yet. You're too fixated on what you feel. And you may ask me, "Well emotions are what make us human,"
But rationality and logic is also important. We need to be both rational and emotional. Open your eyes and realise that really,
You are your own worst enemy.
@Gary: I've been doing some thinking. You're right. Thank you, I needed to hear that. =]
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