Dear Beloved Lovesick Fools,
Or followers as you are also known by. Lately, I haven't been feeling my cheery self. Lately, I've been feeling numb. Lack of emotions. Everything feels so forced. So fake. Even my smiles. Its so hard pretending to smile every day when there's no reason to. I want to one day be able to be happy without reason. I'm still searching for my happiness. I'm so grateful you've been sharing this journey with me. And I'm glad that there are people who says that my writing is "Beautiful".
But, right now my heart and mind are more blank than paper. They're completely empty. Words, like my feelings won't come out clearly. And I can't bear to bother you with my muddled words so I'm leaving, indefinitely. I was so proud that I could make anything beautiful even death. Because, all along I thought that if I could make even those that are ugly into something beautiful, one day I myself can be beautiful.But I can't do it any more. No matter what I try, the words won't flow.
I'm sorry for all those that had to endure my rants. But I'm giving up writing for now. Thank you for following me all this time. I hope to return to you soon and that when I do, my writing would have improved. I'll miss everyone and hope that some of you would still be waiting for me when that one day comes. I'm glad that for all these months, I shared precious feelings with you. One day, I'll come back as a beautiful butterfly.
But, for now its goodbye.
Lucy, aka Lovesick Fool
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